For some reason, all day today I've been stuck in this weird mood. Not good, not bad just whatever. It started with me not getting enough sleep on my birthday and having to work 8-4 today. Then coming home, i had to finish homework and then my cousins came over to celebrate my birthday. It wasn't a bad day or anything i just feel weird. Almost emotionless. I don't know what i feel right now and to be totally honest it kinda scares me. Is it normal to have a day when you don't know your own emotions?
I've been working on this kindergarten curriculum project over the past week and focusing on that is the only thing keeping my mind off of this weirdness. I had to find a book for elementary level and create a lesson for English, math, science, social studies, music and art. I also had to design a bulletin board and create a field trip. It's one of the most creative projects I've ever had to do- but it's really fun. I enjoy doing it, but still can't seem to be happy.
I don't know whats up, but it's weird. Not even sure why I'm blogging right now, lol. It's 11, i need to get to bed so i won't be exhausted for work tomorrow too. Hmm. it's weird. And i don't know how to describe it.
It's times like right now that i wish i could call up my nephew Noah. I haven't heard from him in forever, and it sucks. Found out a few days ago my sisters having a girl. Wonderful. Another child that will have a very slim chance at a good childhood. People like my sisters disgust me. STOP having kids when you don't deserve them. Or if you get pregnant at least give the child to someone who can't have kids who will actually give it the proper care he/she needs. Did i mention i finally beat my sisters at something? I went through 16 years of my life without getting pregnant! WOO.... it's pretty pathetic that i even have to think about that being 17 and not having a kid is different from my sisters.
I honestly just want to take a day away from everyone and go fishing. Down at the New Baltimore Dock... just my pole, my dad and i. (and of course some creepy crawlers). This summer, my goal is to teach 7 people how to fish. Most likely little kids sense most adults know how. I don't really know why 7, it's always been my lucky number.... it has been since my first Tigers game my dad always said. Dean Palmer.... he was on the Tigers team for only a few short years, but my dad loved him. He met him when he was younger, and always rooted for him, even though he wasn't the best. He was #7 before Rodriguez. I guess i get it from that, i'm not really sure.
But my goal is 7 people. To share something that gets me through the good times and bad. I'm going to start with my group of friends, i already told them by the end of the summer they weren't going to be grossed out by worms anymore.
I can't wait for this summer. Fishing, that's what i can't wait for.... and yeah i know that's weird sense im a girl lol.
I think i'm going to make a personal bucket list for this summer. Every year i make one with my friends, but i think i'm going to make one for myself. When i finish it, i'm gonna post it on here (:
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