It's NOT okay.

I've been thinking about how I wanted to approach this blog, each angle I looked at seemed to have pain in it. Then I realized that there isn't any other way to look at it. So for the past few days, I've been observing people's thoughts, actions and words after the shooting. Sitting back and just observing has helped me answer my questions and has made me think about my life.

This, is not okay. I've been trying to imagine why someone could do this. But i can't.

What is our society coming too? Truly.

Daniel Barden, 7

Rachel Davino, 29

Olivia Engel, 6

Josephine Gay, 7

Ana Marquez-Greene, 6

Dylan Hockley, 6

Dawn Hochsprung, 47

Madeleine Hsu, 6

Catherine Hubbard, 6

Chase Kowalski, 7

Jesse Lewis, 6

James Mattioli, 6

Grace McDonnell, 7

Anne Marie Murphy, 52

Emilie Parker, 6

Jack Pinto, 6

Noah Pozner, 6

Caroline Previdi, 6

Jessica Rekos, 6

Avielle Richman, 6

Lauren Rousseau, 30

Mary Sherlach, 56

Victoria Soto,27

Benjamin Wheeler, 6

Allison Wyatt, 6

 

For each one of the names of the children killed, is another family grieving. Another Christmas stocking that won't be touched, another boyscout meeting with one less member, another dance perforamnce with one less dancer. A world with 26 less people. People who will have to live their daily lives with this HORRIBLE tragedy. INNOCENT children will now go to bed with sights of dead children in their minds. Knowing that some of there own friends won't be back. This, is disgusting.

I will not give the killer the satisfaction of typing his name, there is not many things i can say about him other than; I hope the pits of Hell that he is now in engulfed with flames.

I've never wished Hell on anyone, but this man deserves no mercy.

I started asking myself; where's this God I've proclaimed to know all this time. Why would he let this happen. I became so bitter with God over the last few days. It made me realize something though. This is NOT Gods fault. This is the work of Satan. So I'll answer my question from earlier.... Where is God? He's hugging the new 26 children and adults that are coming into heaven, telling them they are loved an that they don't need to be afraid anymore. That's where He is.

Over the past few weeks, I've had my own personal struggles with my faith. It's times like this I reflect. I was wrong all along. I've stayed angry at God for stuff that isn't His will. I've been pushing away the most important person in my life- Him. This shooting although may be tragic, isn't the story God had intended on. This is pure evil, and we all know that evil comes from Satan. So those are my thoughts.... That this isn't Gods doing, but rather Satan. Who knows if I'm right but there is no way I can justify God for doing this.

So my sincere condolences to the family's, friends and communities of Newton. No amount of words, will ever make up for those innocent lives that were taken away from a sick, sick man.