Mother's Day 2013

I feel like a broken record. I feel like my words will never express how much I'm hurt. I feel like no matter how many people I confide in, they'll never truly understand. I feel like I'm not good enough, I wasn't for her. 

I dread Mother's Day. I dread it. I dread the fact that although Father's Day is hard- my dad didn't chose to leave. My mom did. It was her choice an she chose against having a family, having a daughter, having me. 

Today, I feel bitter. Have you ever felt so worthless that even the person who was supposed to love you the most didn't want you? The person that held you in her womb for months, the one who was supposed to be there for you always. He left. 

Whomever is reading this, look at your own relationships with your mother. Imagine if she just left you. You would be lost. How can someone that is supposed to love me so much leave?  I don't understand it, and I'm hurt.