The best day I've had in months.

Yesterday, was a really rough day, it was the custody hearing. It determined who i would spend the next three years with. I had already made my mind up to live with my dad, i had written a letter, submitted it to the referee and i had told Sue (my moms new guardian) my wishes. I am so blessed. because God was with me 100% because i was not very worried. I was open to let God handle the situation. Since i was the child being discussed, i wasn't allowed into the room, so instead i went to walk around down town port Huron. I found a bench along the canal and prayed like there was no tomorrow. Praying for my dad to have the strength to speak up for himself and for the lady to make a decision, one that i would accept. After about twenty minuets, i decided to head back. On my walk back i felt like something good was going to come out of the day so i walked a little faster and waited for the walk sign to come on with less patience. When i got there they were still in the room so i waited in the hallway for about 3 minuets praying and when they all came out, i looked at my dad and gave him a thumbs up, thumbs halfway and thumbs down..... he returned with a thumbs up. My dad had 100% custody of me, with no visitation rights with my mom unless i chose too. I was so extremely happy, i no longer had to deal with my mom. I no longer had to put up with her crushing my heart with all the bull crap she put me through. I was free, free of a mom who was barely ever there.  I was free of someone who only pretended to love me, and that day spending time with friends and family after,i was in the best mood I've been in for a longggggg time! I smiled at everything because i was so happy. As i thought about the option to see her i have mad a decision. I want to wait- wait until Christmas time, to give her an opportunity to go through life without her own flesh and blood. With out the person she told her secretes to without her daughter. Around Christmas time if i feel like i want too- i will invite her out to lunch at a restaurant, one that i know she likes. I will show up with a letter explaining how my life for the last several months have been. I will explain that there is only a few times a month i want to see her and I'm sorry but i still choose not to have contact with her. I think i want to do this because i have never gone through a Christmas without her. It would be to weird, because Christmas is my favorite holiday... and i don't want it to be any different from the previous years of my life. I don't know maybe i shouldn't meet up with her, i haven't made any final decisions yet, I'm just going along with my heart. I can't wait for my dad and i to get our life starting as us alone, no one else to get us angry, no one to distract us from our goals. No one. I'm so blessed to have family, friends and God who love me unconditionally. I feel blessed knowing that even if i am in Port Huron, or in Macomb for court.... God always has my back... and he ALWAYS answers my prayers.