For everyone who knows me, they know that i have been a vegetarian for three years, that i love animals, the Jesus Christ is my Savior. That i never settle for anything less than my best. That i haven't had the easiest life, that i write poems. They would know all that stuff about me, but yet they won't know my weaknesses and my fears. I fear of trusting people- because I'm so tired of getting stabbed in the back, I fear for the life of my nieces and nephews, because they have not had the best life and don't make the best choices. I fear that something will happen to my grandma and she will go to heaven, before I'm ready for her to leave. But my biggest fear as of this very moment- Is tomorrow. Tomorrow is one of the various court cases this month for my mom's doings. I'm terrified to see her face. I am terrified for my grandparents who are being accused of fraud, I'm terrified of what my mom is doing to my dad and I. I'm scared of what will become of this huge mess, what will happen to my dad and me. But i know as a christian, that it will be OK. God's on my side, i have given my life to him. I have prayed to him, i have worshiped him- I have read His words. My mom was born a Catholic and now is nothing, she is missing the powerful love of the Lord, she is living a life not worth living- because she doesn't have God on her side. God is in control of this situation, he will let no harm come to me or my father or grandparents. He will protect us from Satan whom is taking over my mothers soul. HE WILL SAVE ME FROM MY FEARS. If he can take the excruciating pain of nails be pierced through his hands and feet, to die upon a cross, for my sins- I can sure handle a court case. If anyone out there is really reading this. Pray for me. Pray that God will continue his unconditional love, that he will allow me to be his hands and feet. That he will encourage me to do no wrong and come to him in times of need.
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