The time- is NOW.

I've had so many words running through my head the last couple days. I've been consumed with things with my family, static, my mom and mostly that Rutherford discovered the nucleus- for chemistry. I haven't had time to just really relax and analyze my thoughts. So I'm taking the next twenty minutes to just type.

Every week God has seemed to change me more and more. Last week at church- one of our lead pastors from South Campus was visiting; his messaged made me think long and hard about some things i have prayed for.

For example;
Every night for the last few months i have been praying for somethings that seem impossible. Among these are;
1. My mother to accept Christ. 2. My niece to make the right choices, 3. My grandma to be pain free 4. for my dad to be able to walk again 5. For me to try my hardest in everything i do and 6. For my mom to be free of depression.

I've heard it a thousand times; "That's impossible!"  BUT IT'S NOT! (:   In the book of Joshua, he asked God to stop the sun, and God did!  God is willing to do the impossible..... but there is a catch.

I've never thought about that-  a catch to God doing the impossible for you, but i understand now. You can't just pray for something and expect it to change magically.  An example my pastor used last Sunday was an addict.  He stated that whether or not we pray for the impossible doesn't mean it's going to come through.  YOU have to want it, and be willing to change for it too!  He used the example of an addict by saying that if a drug attic prays for God to cure him from his addiction and the same day he goes and buys a bag of drugs..... didn't you just waste your time?

You have to be willing to change if you want change in your life. I thought of that, and thought of my list of prayers; one caught my eye. It was that i wanted my mom to accept Christ.  I know i can't control what she does no matter how much i pray.... but whats stopping me from encouraging it out loud and helping her?

I'm not talking about actually physically meeting up with my mom- I'm talking about other things; that wouldn't involve us being together; at least not yet.  My mind is scattered with ideas. I think my number one choice as of right now would be a care package.  When i was at girl scout camp about 6 years ago, i know that i was really lonely without my parents around and they sent me a care package to make me feel better- and it did.  So in the next few weeks i am going to be gathering items to put into the box.  Some ideas i have are; of course a Bible (NIV of course!), a journal, pictures of my and her, my nieces and nephews and some family, a few books that helped me find God and a letter.

 I'm truly worried about the different outcomes of this.  I'm scared that i am wasting my time, but i am praying every night that as the time goes on,this plan will evolve more and help me help her.  The letter isn't going to be some emotional letter; it's going to be short and sweet and down to the point.

My number one goal right now; is just simply this:  Do everything humanly possible to shown my mom God's love.

I know that if i help out, and try to introduce her to him, God will handle the rest.
I'm hoping that this will work.  I can't wait to see my moms life changing by Christ. It's going to be amazing.

For now, I'm just going to pray until i know it's the right time.

Today, I'm going to Port Huron for a Youth Conference for Christ following teens.  We got to pick three seminars we wanted to attend and my first choice was one that said:  Missing one mom or dad. Can't wait to see what this class is all about- i hope it teaches me how to deal with the pain of my mom leaving better, because i need that... a lot...