Merry CHRISTmas! (:

It seems like forever since the last time I've written on here, but i couldn't resist posting about CHRIST mas, aka Jesus birthday! :) Lol.

So, yesterday, my family kept the annual tradition alive by all gathering at my house to celebrate Christmas one day early. It was really nice to have all the family together, but at the same time, it still doesn't feel like Christmas to me. I remember watching the faces of all my little cousins and nephew as they opened everything, filled with excitement, joy and anxiousness. They were celebrating a holiday, that they recognize for a time where, Santa comes down the chimney to give them toys, where there is a lot of food, and they get to go home with their car packed. But what really makes me feel like it's not Christmas, is because they don''t know the true meaning of it.

They don't know that Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins, that he rose again, and that still to this day, he is alive. They don't know the story of Jesus and how a young girl, who was engaged and a virgin, got pregnant by God. They don't know that hardships of Mary, Joseph and God.

Think about it, Mary was a teenager, who had never had sex, but what kind of feelings did Joseph have, when he found out Mary was pregnant, before the angel told him in his dream. How would you feel?  How would you feel, if this woman that you were getting married to, said she was pregnant, even though, you were both virgins? I know how i would feel, and it wouldn't be a good feeling. I would be angry, upset and think that they were lying.

I heard something at our Christmas service at church this week, my pastor said that people have purified the story of Christmas, so it wouldn't look as bad as it truly is, and thinking about that, he is totally right! Mary gave birth to Jesus in a stable. It was no place clean, someplace that didn't  smelled good, or even healthy. But that didn't stop the birth of Him. How amazing is that Jesus Christ, our savior, was born IN A STABLE, but yet, he did amazing things.

I've been really analyzing my thoughts on this story, and thinking about this makes me reflect on a movie. The movie is- To Save A Life. It is my ultimate, favorite movie. It explains the journey of two best friends. You see two boys raised together, one day while playing basketball a car swerved and was aiming for one of the boys and his friend jumped in front of him. He save his life while hurting himself, and he grew never to have the same life again. He had a limp, that made people make fun of him, and his "friend"- the one who's life he saved, doesn't talk to him anymore because he is too busy with sports and being the beer pong champion. It ends up, that the boy who risked his own life to save a friend, took his own life as well. This movie changed my life, because it didn't end there. The friend who watched as the boy who saved his life, shot himself in the head, learned to learn from his mistakes, and he made life changing decisions to help save lives. He began to love on all the "outsiders" at his high school, and ends up saving another persons life.

That boy, who looked at people a different way, who loves on people who aren't in his "clique", he is my mentor. I wish i could do the same. Because look at Jesus. Look at his birth environment, a DIRTY SMELLY STABLE FOR ANIMALS!! He was born in a horrible place, but people put that aside to love and praise him. why can't people do that now?  Why can't i walk through the hallways of my high school feeling like everyone gets along, that no matter what "clique" your in, you can still respect each other..... why not?

God is the only one with the answer to that. But i know that after watching that movie over a year ago, i have never been the same again.  Honestly, before watching the movie, i did not talk to anyone out of my comfort zone, i have a group of about 6 really good friends and that's how i liked it, and i never shared the word of God, but than i watched the movie, and that's when i changed everything in my life. I ignored the labels, the hair color, the piercings and instead i focused on showing them the love of Jesus Christ.

Today, i am packing my stuff and going to Jackson to go visit with my grandparents (my mom's side). I'm going to be spending about a week down there, but, I'm gonna be home for my birthday. It's gonna be a lot of fun,  I haven't been there in a while. They live on Lake Somerset, and i love walking across the lake, or going ice skating.  Since I'm going to be 16 in less than 2 weeks,  we are going out to buy my first purity ring :) Although I'm super excited, it definitely feels weird, not having my mom along with me, but where ever she is, what ever she is doing, i want her to know that i as well as Jesus Christ loves her, and i hope she is getting good use out of the Bible i sent her. AND..... i am looking forward to calling her tonight, to wish her a Merry Christmas :)

Happy Birthday Jesus, i know your over 2000 years old, but your still one of my best friends :)

I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas, and that they don't leave out the true meaning of Christmas.