It's around 12:30 am, and i can't fall asleep lol, so I'm gonna blog, because i literally have nothing better to do! (: (So excuse me if some parts don't make sense, lol.)
Today was my last day at my grandparents. It wasn't the trip that i was really looking forward too- but it turned out to be fun. My original plan a few weeks ago, was that my cousin was going to drive in from Maryland to my grandparents house and we would hang out for a week, go ice skating, sight seeing (since she hasn't been to MI in a longggg time), purchase my first purity ring, and of course shop! Than i was going to come home in time for my 16th birthday, and celebrate it with all of my friends, work on homework here and there and relax the last few days of break and enjoy spending time with my grandma. But.... it didn't turn out that way at all. My uncle whom resides in Maryland, fell and broke his hip and he's in his late 80's and is the father to my cousin who was supposed to be traveling up here- so i couldn't blame her in the least for wanting to stay and take care of her dad. Than..... while i prepared to go ice-skating on my grandparents lake- it turned out that the lake was the farthest thing from frozen, and the most sight seeing i did was of the country hills and bowling alleys. I did thought buy my first purity ring- and even though my grandma is still confused on what it is- it's really special to me. I'm coming home tomorrow with the only plans that are final are my plans for new years eve.
Since I've been here for week, with nothing really to do, I've thought about 2011, and all the hardships it brought. I replayed the whole year pointing out some really fun times and times when i felt like my world was falling apart. But i learned something really valuable while thinking about my past..... why think about it when it only brings sadness?
When i think of 2011, i don't want to think about the pain it put me through and the choices i had to make. I want to think of the things that made me stronger, and made me laugh and love life.
I was baptized on January 16th 2011. By far- that was one of the best days of my life. I went to a life altering camp in the middle of June 2011, i became a Godmother this past summer, i became a stronger Christian in the last 6 months, i finally started figuring out who i was as a person- AND- i actually started understanding math!! (I used to HATE algebra, but i actually understand geometry!!)
Those are the things that i want to recognize when the subject of 2011 pops up. I know that some people will argue with me and say, "don't forget your past, its what made you." and i agree. I'm not letting go of my past- just the parts that continue to bring me down.
As Rascal Flatts sing in there song, "I'm moving on", I've been burdened with pain, trapped in the past for too long, I'm moving on" and that's what I'm doing :)
Below is a song that i absolutely LOVE. Rascal Flatts, I'm moving on.
So, as i try and go to bed, considering it is now 1:30 am, i want to wish everyone a very happy new years, and my new years resolution- is that i will make the absolute best out of 2012, and let go of 2011.
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