Disappointments in life ):

If we really dig deep into why things don't happen the way we want them to, our answer includes God, more than we know it. Why does God make things difficult when they could be so easy? Why does God make things the way WE don't want them?  Does anyone ever truly think about that? Sometimes when we pray really really hard for something to happen, and it doesn't, we get upset. But why?  To me, when i have a disappointment in my life, it's just God letting me know i have something better in store (:    So, yeah i get things didn't always happen the way we want, but maybe we are so consumed with the thoughts of what we want, that God is trying to get out attention. For example, today i was expecting a great surprise. I had been praying about it for months, and i really  thought today was the day- but it wasn't. When i first realized that i "wasted" all my time praying for it, i felt horrible. I know that there was nothing i could do, so i went in the chapel awaiting Pastor Goche's message. It was like God had shut one door, for me to hear the sermon of the day, and realize why. He explained how sometimes we have so much going on that we can over think and hope for things which make us distance ourselves from God. Today, i woke up at 745 for church, i was the greeter today, so i opened the doors awaiting my prays to evolve, and as time went on and on and the service had started i realized my prayers weren't going to be answered today. I'm not upset, I'm not sad, I'm not even close to angry, I'm neutral. I'm disappointed, but i understand, I'm confused but i know the answer. Mostly I'm thinking about the next step in my life that God has in store for me. I may never get this prayer answered, but that's okay, because that's just God letting me know, it will never be :)