I haven't really talked about my mom lately, so i figured would give yall' a little update. I talked to her on Christmas morning...... it wasn't that good. I was excited to talk, but she wasn't. But that's okay, i accepted it and just tried to enjoy it. During the conversation, she told me something that literally crushed me. She said " I feel like your emotionally blackmailing me to go to church." I had never had an intention even close to that, so when we ended the phone call, i thought about how i could fix things. It was around two in the morning and i started writing her a letter.
The letter was four pages long. I opened it with, " Honor thy mother and they father"..... that's why i am doing this. And i ended with, I love you. Those four letters, i dug down deep inside me and expressed emotions about faith, and how i have become a Christian. I told her about how i had to rely on God when she left. I felt accomplished when i wrote it, but sadly i hand wrote the letter, and don't have a copy. My grandpa is having her scan it and send him a copy, because she read the letter aloud to him. When he gets it, he said he will send me a copy of it, and i will post it on here.
Since then, things have gone downhill. My mom was "beat up" by her guardian. It occurred in the parking lot of a restaurant, when her guardian got fed up with her mouth. She pulled her out of the car and started throwing her around and hitting her. Sue was arrested, and my mom stayed in a hotel that night. I felt horrible when i heard this news; but what made me get even angrier was to hear my grandpa say that Sue and her husband were still his best friends.
My exact response to him was, " How many years have my mom and dad been together? Almost twenty.... and how many times has he put a hand on her? NONE. How many times have i ever put a hand on her, 3 times. And you know why? Because the first time, she was choking me, the second time she was pulling my hair and the third time, she was punching me in the gut. I have been with her for 16 years, and i only touched her for self defense, so who in the right mind after knowing her for 7 months would smack her?
He had no response to that. But i was serious, i had put my hands on her before, but only because i basically couldn't breathe. Of course i didn't want to, but at the time i felt like i had no other choice.
My point it; who would ever do that? Definitely not a social worker; which "Sue" is going to school to be.
After that night, my mom called my grandpa, who the next day made the 2 hour drive to Chesterfield to pick her up at a hotel. she has been staying with him for a few days and will be there for a few weeks. Tomorrow (Tuesday) She is going to Port Huron, to get once again; a change in guardianship. After that, the 17th is another hearing for the divorce. I have been praying so hard lately; that everything will go through with the divorce.
And (sarcastically) even better news- she is moving back in with my dad....... great isn't it?
One thing i want her to know is; it was HER choice to leave seven months ago, she can't just come back and act like nothing happened, because i won't let her. I didn't mind having her in my life from afar, but i would be a fool to let her just come back in my life.
So i have a request. A request of prayers. I'm not to sure on what the outcome of this will be anymore. I need prayers not only for me, but for my mom. I need prayers to help her get better, and hopefully choose a better life; one that doesn't involve moving back with my dad. I know that's a weird request, for a teen to want her parents to stay separated..... but if everyone knew what was really going on behind the scenes; and the stuff i can't say... you would understand.
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