One thing remains.

"Higher than the mountains i will face, stronger than the power of the grave. Constant through the trial and the change, one things remains, one thing remains.  Your love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me. Because on, and on, and on and on it goes. For it overwhelms and satisfy my soul. And i never, ever, have to be afraid. One thing remains, one thing remains.  Your love never fails it never gives up, it never runs out on me."  One Thing Remains sung by Jesus Culture.

I love the line and i never, ever have to be afraid.  Why?  Because it makes me feel better when i hear stuff i don't like.   A lot of people who know my dad, know that he has been in a wheelchair for years.  They know that he proudly served in the army and suffers from it today.  They know that he is the parent that i go to most- because he didn't leave me.

But- lately in the last few months, his health has really started to scare me.  It's been good for about 2 weeks now, until yesterday.  My dad for the past year has gone to his doctor because he is getting little to none circulation to his feet.  Something that they have been trying to deal with for  a while now, but nothing is working.  So they are looking at other options.  One of those, that my dad told me last night, was him getting his feet amputated.

I have never experienced anyone in my own life having any sort of amputation.  I am scared, and i can't bear the though of seeing my dad without feet.  That line about not being afraid helped me, i'm not saying i'm not scared- because i am.  I'm not saying that when the day comes that i'm going to handle it okay- because i wont.  But i am saying that through it all, God will be with him, and i will be next to him for as long as i possibly can.

-Nothing in life is to feared. It is only to be understood. A famous quote by Marie Curie.  

So, i'll find out in a few months exactly whats going to happen, but at the looks of it, it's not going to go well. 

Jesus, over 2000 years ago, gave the greatest sacrifice, i can't be upset with him for asking so little of me.  I just have to accept it, pray about it, and live with it.  I am fully prepared to. I just need help on the praying part.  

Lately, i feel as if i haven't prayed as much, because " I don't have time".  But the real truth is i make time for things that are important to me.  I need to go back to praying like i was, because things felt a lot better back then.   I don't know what is important to you, but i'm going to log off and go pray for my daddy. <3