Reality.

Right now, at this moment, it is 10:47 pm on Sunday night.  I'm sitting in my room upstairs at my grandparents house typing, while their dog Tye snores by under my feet.  When i woke up this morning i was refreshed and wanting to write.  As the day went on, at church, i knew exactly what i wanted to write about, so i was anticipating this moment  right here, right now.   But right now, i feel horrible.  I feel like my spring break is going to be the worst ever.  I just feel so confused, and i can't talk to my family about it, because then my dad will find out.  My dad would flip, and i can't go through him being upset again it's too much for him.

So instead i'm going to simply post a song that's dear to my heart right now.  It's called a Trophy fathers, Trophy son by Sleeping with Sirens.   This song, is what my mood is in right now.

The other day- my friend posted something on facebook along the lines on- music speaks the words i can't say.   And i can truly say that's the plain and simple truth.  This song speaks all of my fear.

I'm posting the song below, but right now i'm too tired to type anymore, so i'm going to go to bed..... even though i have absolutely know idea of whats going on tomorrow.