When i got home, i ran to my room to start writing, because that's what i do when i'm in pain. And i wrote this; nothing spectacular just my heart trying to patch itself up.
Tonight, reminded me of you. Every time parents were mentioned i thought of you. I thought about how much it would of meant to me if you would have been there. But than i remembered. When you left, you left all of the amazing moments that i will face in high-school. You will never be at those things because of your choice. Mommy, sometimes it hurts so bad. No matter how much i tell people i don't miss you, i do. Tonight was a night that i will never forget, and one you will never remember because you were not there. I miss you mom, and i hope one day you realize how much i am trying to make you proud, even though you don't care enough to see
It's hard to admit, but i really do miss her sometimes. I went to the induction with Mr. and Mrs. Robinson and my aunt. It was hard seeing all of the kids hugging their parents. But- it's something that i have to deal with. At the induction, one of the board members sang a song that i've played on the guitar myself many times, and that i use as a pick me up song when i am down. It's called Stand by Rascal Flatts. Thats when my mom came to my mind a lot more.
It's hard- but i know that God has everything under control. Sometimes it hurts more than other times, but i will always remember that every second i could be thinking about the pain my mom puts me through, could be a second i could be thinking about the people who will be by my side no matter what.
I'm going to post the song below, because it's a really good song! (:
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