Here comes the sun

Today was a really good day. I've been so busy lately, that I haven't had much time to just relax. Today I did. Usually on Saturdays I'm either at my dads or volunteering but most of the day I was outside on our porch swing with my puppy and God daughter.

It was around 7, that my God daughter, Rylee went inside so I plugged in my headphones and blared music. I just hit shuffle, and the first song that came on was, here comes the sun by the Beatles.

I absolutely love that song. It came on at a perfect ending of a perfect day. Who could have asked for a more beautiful day? I feel so relaxed, all my troubles are starting to fade away. My dad is home and resting, my mom has officially moved into her new house and I finally made up my mind that I will be donating my hair again. Last year I donated a total of 16 inches, this year I'm going to do 5 I think. I'm so ready for spring and summer now. I think being outside in shorts made me also realize, that summer is soon approaching, and my sophomore year of high school is slowly coming to an end.

Now on my iPod, the song just switched to Butterfly Fly Away by Billy Rae Cyrus. If you've never heard this sing, it's about a girl who is singing a duet with her dad about growing up. It's a really good song, and it makes me think about the future.

The future- that's a scary thought. I can't believe that I will be starting my junior year of high school in just 5 months. I feel so old :P.

I think the hardest thing about this summer was that I lost all confidence in my future. I had my whole life planned out. I wanted to attend MSU become a vet and adopt 4 children. Now, the only thing I still plan on doing when I am older is to adopt. I'm not sure what I want to be. I have 4 careers that I would love to get into but it's really hard to choose. A few weeks ago I asked my friends mom from church how she decided to become a nurse. She explained to me that it's because her mom is a nurse. That's how it is for my friend Ashley too, both of her parents are teachers and that's what she wants to be. So I feel stuck in the middle.

My dad- he was in the army, and after being discharged he was in a wheel chair so he had no career.... And I definitely don't want to be in the army. I'm already freaked out enough about my family being over there. And my mom- it's hard to say what her career was, because she had no definite career.

So where does that leave me? I was thinking about this today too and I decided to look at the two closet people I have like my parents. The Robinsons. Mr. & Mrs. Robinson were both teachers and there son Kent, has his degree in criminal justice. That's ironic... Because 2 of the four careers I have been looking into are teaching and criminal justice.

So i guess it's true that a lot of people get their future careers from their parents- or in my case my second parents.

Where ever I end up in life I know that the sun will be shining and I will have people there who love me, whether they are my real family or not.

Something I read the other day- family isn't always blood. It's the people in your life who want you in theirs; the ones who accept you for who you are. The ones who would do anything to see you smile and who love you no matter what.

I love finding quotes like that.  Because they make me think about all the people who do love me instead of the people who don't.  I know that every single person that is reading this blog, is part of my family.  They all have impacted my life more than they know.   The people i give the URL to my blog, are the people that are my family, and the people i trust.  Whether they are like a big sister, or a second dad, you guys shape me into the person i am becoming.

God gave me a family; one that isn't blood related but just related through their caring hearts.  The sun is out in my life, and it will continue to be.  God blessed me so much, and the warm air on my skin only makes me realize that more and more <3

So I'm gonna sign off and enjoy the rest of the evening with my God-daughter, grandma and puppy.

I AM BLESSED <3