Isaiah 40:31

I posted something Sunday after church on my facebook, and i thought it was perfect to write about. I posted; 

One of the first steps to rebuilding your life is forgiving the people who tore your life apart- So i forgive my mom. For all the tearing apart and hurt she caused this summer. The second step, is admitting once again that our God is amazing, because he will ALWAYS be there.  God you're amazing <3. And the third step...... hmmmm not sure yet. But i'm now two steps closer to having my life back.

 

That^ is sooooo true! I have forgiven the past, i'm not saying it doesn't still hurt- because it DOES!  I'm not saying i don't cry about it anymore- I DO! I have only forgiven her because that is what Jesus would do. It's amazing to realize that i am healing from her. I'm not going to say that it's going to be easy. Most likely i'll loose it on the months ahead- but i'm going to be okay. If i haven't made this obvious enough; i have God in my life, i have family who love me and friends who are always there to talk to. She has no one. She has nothing. I'm done being an outreach to her needs. In Matthew Wests' song; Strong Enough, the opening lyrics are- 

You must, you must think i'm strong, to give me what i'm going through. Well forgive me, forgive me if i'm wrong, but this looks like more than i can do- on my own.  I know i'm not strong enough to be everything that i'm supposed to be; i give up i'm not strong enough. Hands of mercy wont you cover me, Lord right now i'm asking you to be strong enough, strong enough.... for the both of us.

This song spoke wonders to me, the lyrics made me realize something- am i dead? NO. Than stop acting like it. Big deal your mom left, she could care less about you. What about those kids who don't have parents? At least i knew my mom. Get out of this gloomy, shallow mind setting. Be happy again. Don't be afraid to smile. Live life like you mean it. Live life like your doing everything you can until your day come's to be with God.

Don't let anything stand in your way, because if you're going to let little things like this summer take over your life- you're going to drown. 

So i'm referring back to my all time favorite Bible verse-

         Isaiah 40:31- But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not grow faint.